Wow jo..I can totally picture you with all the kids. You were always like the motherly type, in my eyes at least. I hope you be a teacher. And I hope you are enjoying your life...you deserve it!
I dont understand why profe would ask you (sonya) to get coffee when she hates you. I really think you need to find a new gym sonya---or at least get shon to teach you.
Oh, last night I was watching felicity and I was like, I dont know how the show ends..like does she end up with Ben or Noel? So I looked it up online and she ends up with Ben. Good, that makes me happy. But, I also found this:
Dear Felicity,
Here it goes. I've watched you for four years. Always wondered what you were like... what was going on in your mind all the time that you were so quiet, just thinking, drawing in your notebook. I should have just asked you, but I never asked you.
So now, four years later, I don't even know you, but I admire you.
Well, this makes me sound crazy, but I'm okay with that. So take care of yourself.
Love, Ben
P.S. I would have said "keep in touch", but unfortunately we never were in touch.
That's so great. I hope someone writes something like that in my yearbook :)
---edited because um...well....yeah.
Thursday, March 27, 2003
Tuesday, March 25, 2003
im listening to the norah jones cd that stacy burned for me and it is so good and relaxing.. esp after a busy day such as today. im sitting here and i dont have homework and i really dont understand that. my day: during 6th period i did the photos for the newspaper (only 4 this time.. phew) and then i went home and did some math on my front porch, which was nice since it was beautiful but not nice because i didnt understand what i was doing. then i read more of the play and then i went to starbucks to meet profe manly with karen and jessa. some weird salesperson guy harassed us and he was talking about God and Oklahoma and Red Bull and i didn't really know what was happening so i kept "nodding like a madman". the nodding motivated him tho and so he talked some more and i think that after that, profe hated us. i asked her "hows the baby" and she didnt say much but she was very nice and pretty. except she hates us. but thats alright. then i got some fude chocolate frap blah blah thing and i accidently drank it in like 30 seconds. oh, also, my eye was twitching. its not anymore tho. but then i came home and then sherry and i wanted to go to tumbling but we didnt want to pay. so we went and didnt pay and shaun was a lover. hes a lover when he doesnt talk. last time he said "oh hi" in a really bratty, shitty way but this time he didnt acknowledge my presence and it was a lot better. i got tired of waiting for him so i started doing tucks on my own and it was all good. EXCEPT I WANT TO DO LAYOUTS> that stupid ho! i cant do anything because of him! i really need to look for a new gym but im too lazy. i guess ill just teach myself for now. i almost died after tumbling for an hour and then doing sit ups and dumb frog jumps and running. but i love it. i dont love shaun tho. i just watch him because he looks damn sexy even tho he has a huge ayse. its fun to compare its size to the side of his tiny pea brained head. oh yes and on a white board it said "you are never alone in life -- shaun mcrae" and i wanted to erase "never" when no one was looking or erase "never" and "in life" but i didnt do it. anyway hes very sexy. then i came home and i colored my spanish thing and tried more math and then i cleaned my room and bathroom and now im here and everything feels done! how can this be?! so today when i was in the shower i was thinking how i am very observant. i know everyones name and i know everything about everyone but they do not know who i am. i dont think it means im a loser. i just seriously know weird things. take nicole christie. today she was passing out papers and she said 'you're sonya, right? ..sorry, i'm bad with names'. so shes unsure of my name.. and i know... that she was in my math class frosh yr and she was friends with kris orlando and that they drove me nuts so i switched out, that she directs one acts and does drama and stuff, that ms.brooks loves her, and that she is very jewish and goes to this synogogue in del mar thats new and on sat's she passes out grape juice there. (i saw her there during a bar mitzvah). i know ALL of that. i know that Leni Filer's real name is Lenahan and that she's on cheer and that she used to be in yearbook and tried to quit but it didnt work. she has a sister named Ali (Alahan? jk) who is also in cheer and they are both on the FAMILY page in the yearbook. shes also friends with ashley kaku who "lives for the nights [she] may never remember with the friends [she] will never forget". and none of these people know that i am alive. i know that tony copotelli's mother teaches at sundance and that when he was little he always wanted to help out. and he turned a lot and so they called him some weird name and his brother got in a car accident. i think i also remember people and they never remember me. that's why when i see them i never say anything. i wonder if other people are like me also. i know how to spell like everyone's name in the senior class and i can match a lot of them with their faces and yet they have no idea i am even living. it's just funny to think about. im getting sort of tired and i want to sleep by 10:30. please support the troops, even if you oppose the war. i think it's awfully sad how their morale is so low and everything. they are risking their lives, you stupid people. so tomorrow i have work and thur i have ESS and work. and fri i want to do something fun like go to hillcrest, downtown, or PB. we wil see what happens. tom cruise is really hot in jerry maguire.
Sunday, March 23, 2003
I dont know why my name isnt showing up. ehhh...
Okay so on the last hour of my birthday, lemme recap the day. I went to bed at approx. 12:30 am after finding out we didnt make finals (again) and reading "fellowship"--finally!! I was rudely awoken at 5 am by the alarm clock which was extremely annoying and LOUD. ANd being the person closest to the clock I desperately tried to find a way to shut it up....but since it was pitch black in the room and I just could NOT FUNCTION that early in the morning... i ended up whacking it with my hand a bunch of times until it shut up. This was extremely disturbing because: I didnt KNOW the alarm clock was set and therefore when it went off, i couldnt figure out what the heck was making that noise!! At first i thought it was the phone ringing, then someone else's cell phone, but no it was the stupid clock. After I had finally shut it up and was drifting back to sleep...it went off again 5 minutes later. Apparently I had only succeeded in hitting the snooze button. In another desperate act to save myself and my roomates, I finally TURNED ON THE LIGHT... AHHHHHHHH!!!! lemme say it hurt. But what was most disturbing was that NO ONE IN THE ROOM HAD SET THE ALARM CLOCK...we of course, didn't find this out until later. But stupid JORDAN came into our room when we werent there (through the patio door) and thought it would be funny to set the alarm for 5 am. jerk, i got him back for this, but more on that later.
So then after we packed and checked out of the hotel, which was VERY nice by the way...it had this cool little courtyard thing with grandmother willow trees, and this morning i guess it rained a little bit so it was very pretty. Chappy and I had breakfast on our little patio and I read lotr too, it was nice. Okay so we get on the bus and drive to Logan High school. Okay this is intimidating because not only did we NOT make it to finals and have to put up with the scrutinizing looks of the other guards, but we're in freaking JAMES LOGAN....the freaking WGI Champions for the past 5 years. And since we cant just go home--our flight is at 8:30 pm-- we can either watch the show, ($16 for front seating, $3 for back seating) or not. And I'm sorry but I swear after not making it to finals in ALL the regonials, I've seen the show PLENTY of times, thank you very much. So me, chappy, melanie and marianne walked...thats right...WALKED to this little plaza thing. We had no idea where we were going. We just wanted to find a starbucks so we could read. We ended up going to Tapioca Express and got boba :) Then we went next door and had sushi. It was the best little place ever!! We sat at the little bar thing and there's these little boats that hold the food and go around the whole thing (think of "it's a small world"). It was great. We ate $50 worth of food...eek. If we had dinner it would have been $10% off because it was my birthday, but oh well. After we were all fat and couldn't move, we left and jaywalked across the busy street because we saw STARBUCKS. Me and melanie sat on this really really comfortable couch and read. It was a really nice starbucks, probably the nicest one i've ever seen.
So after a while we walked back to the bus (it's about 4 pm) and while we are waiting for everyone to load the bus, I hear "Michelle P. front of the bus!"--I swear we're all like little mindless drones...we follow orders and do what we're told, no questions asked--so of course i get up without hesitation, and there are all the coaches with a birthday cake and its all lighted and crap. So then they sing happy birthday and I am sooo embarrassed. I couldn't blow out the candles!!! it took like 5 minutes, im serious. they're like use your lungs..use your breath...and im like, I dont have any!!! so then we all go outside and have cake. But Im like I cant eat this because it has chocolate in it...i eat around it. Erin looks at my cake and wonders about it. I get a card signed by the guard. I wonder when they signed it. Jaycee says something about having a cake fight...and I see Dafodil trying to start something so I just move away from her..giving her my "warning" stare. THen I have the brilliant idea to slam Jordan with cake since he thought it was SO HILARIOUS with the alarm. So I take a wad of cake and frosting and walk up to him with it behind my back and at the last moment I come from behind and just smash it all in his face. It was GREAT!!!! but then he started chasing me around!!!! and finally he got me and WIPED HIS FACE ON MY SHIRT. I was wearing black and the frosting was white so it looked like I couldnt put on deoderant. it was great.
I couldnt change until the airport...so people saw me with my nice shirt and while i was checking in there were these airport people that were like "is there something on her shirt??" so I turned around and was like "yes there is!!"--yeah duh, i wouldnt buy a shirt that looked like that. Blah blah it was only about 6 and our flight was at 8:30...so we spent the next 3 hours in the airport. that was great. i called home and found out i didnt make it into santa barbara...that was great too. So i sat on the uncomfortable chairs reading lotr and ocassionally watching the oscars. that was great too.
Then we make it on the plane and its pretty hilarious because our pilot is like, on crack or something!! He keeps saying the most RANDOM STUFF...its soo funny. But at the end of his little speech thingy he's like "will michelle p. please push the flight attendant button" and I thought I was in trouble because like the SECOND before that I was told to "shut up" from the coaches because i was too loud. So I pushed it and some guy came up and was like which of you is michelle...and i raised my hand and the captain announced over the plane that it was my 18th birthday so they all sang to me. It was embarrassing.
So that's it. I almost feel like I want to buy alcohol or something. Not that I want to consume any of it, but for some reason I feel like I should be able to. I dont know...its weird. Anyway my next step is to get my adult status and go to barona. oh, and buy a lottery ticket. hah, its strange to think that i am now "legal"--whatever that means to me in particular is unknown. But yeah, thanks to everyone who made my birthday and birthday "party" wonderful.
Okay so on the last hour of my birthday, lemme recap the day. I went to bed at approx. 12:30 am after finding out we didnt make finals (again) and reading "fellowship"--finally!! I was rudely awoken at 5 am by the alarm clock which was extremely annoying and LOUD. ANd being the person closest to the clock I desperately tried to find a way to shut it up....but since it was pitch black in the room and I just could NOT FUNCTION that early in the morning... i ended up whacking it with my hand a bunch of times until it shut up. This was extremely disturbing because: I didnt KNOW the alarm clock was set and therefore when it went off, i couldnt figure out what the heck was making that noise!! At first i thought it was the phone ringing, then someone else's cell phone, but no it was the stupid clock. After I had finally shut it up and was drifting back to sleep...it went off again 5 minutes later. Apparently I had only succeeded in hitting the snooze button. In another desperate act to save myself and my roomates, I finally TURNED ON THE LIGHT... AHHHHHHHH!!!! lemme say it hurt. But what was most disturbing was that NO ONE IN THE ROOM HAD SET THE ALARM CLOCK...we of course, didn't find this out until later. But stupid JORDAN came into our room when we werent there (through the patio door) and thought it would be funny to set the alarm for 5 am. jerk, i got him back for this, but more on that later.
So then after we packed and checked out of the hotel, which was VERY nice by the way...it had this cool little courtyard thing with grandmother willow trees, and this morning i guess it rained a little bit so it was very pretty. Chappy and I had breakfast on our little patio and I read lotr too, it was nice. Okay so we get on the bus and drive to Logan High school. Okay this is intimidating because not only did we NOT make it to finals and have to put up with the scrutinizing looks of the other guards, but we're in freaking JAMES LOGAN....the freaking WGI Champions for the past 5 years. And since we cant just go home--our flight is at 8:30 pm-- we can either watch the show, ($16 for front seating, $3 for back seating) or not. And I'm sorry but I swear after not making it to finals in ALL the regonials, I've seen the show PLENTY of times, thank you very much. So me, chappy, melanie and marianne walked...thats right...WALKED to this little plaza thing. We had no idea where we were going. We just wanted to find a starbucks so we could read. We ended up going to Tapioca Express and got boba :) Then we went next door and had sushi. It was the best little place ever!! We sat at the little bar thing and there's these little boats that hold the food and go around the whole thing (think of "it's a small world"). It was great. We ate $50 worth of food...eek. If we had dinner it would have been $10% off because it was my birthday, but oh well. After we were all fat and couldn't move, we left and jaywalked across the busy street because we saw STARBUCKS. Me and melanie sat on this really really comfortable couch and read. It was a really nice starbucks, probably the nicest one i've ever seen.
So after a while we walked back to the bus (it's about 4 pm) and while we are waiting for everyone to load the bus, I hear "Michelle P. front of the bus!"--I swear we're all like little mindless drones...we follow orders and do what we're told, no questions asked--so of course i get up without hesitation, and there are all the coaches with a birthday cake and its all lighted and crap. So then they sing happy birthday and I am sooo embarrassed. I couldn't blow out the candles!!! it took like 5 minutes, im serious. they're like use your lungs..use your breath...and im like, I dont have any!!! so then we all go outside and have cake. But Im like I cant eat this because it has chocolate in it...i eat around it. Erin looks at my cake and wonders about it. I get a card signed by the guard. I wonder when they signed it. Jaycee says something about having a cake fight...and I see Dafodil trying to start something so I just move away from her..giving her my "warning" stare. THen I have the brilliant idea to slam Jordan with cake since he thought it was SO HILARIOUS with the alarm. So I take a wad of cake and frosting and walk up to him with it behind my back and at the last moment I come from behind and just smash it all in his face. It was GREAT!!!! but then he started chasing me around!!!! and finally he got me and WIPED HIS FACE ON MY SHIRT. I was wearing black and the frosting was white so it looked like I couldnt put on deoderant. it was great.
I couldnt change until the airport...so people saw me with my nice shirt and while i was checking in there were these airport people that were like "is there something on her shirt??" so I turned around and was like "yes there is!!"--yeah duh, i wouldnt buy a shirt that looked like that. Blah blah it was only about 6 and our flight was at 8:30...so we spent the next 3 hours in the airport. that was great. i called home and found out i didnt make it into santa barbara...that was great too. So i sat on the uncomfortable chairs reading lotr and ocassionally watching the oscars. that was great too.
Then we make it on the plane and its pretty hilarious because our pilot is like, on crack or something!! He keeps saying the most RANDOM STUFF...its soo funny. But at the end of his little speech thingy he's like "will michelle p. please push the flight attendant button" and I thought I was in trouble because like the SECOND before that I was told to "shut up" from the coaches because i was too loud. So I pushed it and some guy came up and was like which of you is michelle...and i raised my hand and the captain announced over the plane that it was my 18th birthday so they all sang to me. It was embarrassing.
So that's it. I almost feel like I want to buy alcohol or something. Not that I want to consume any of it, but for some reason I feel like I should be able to. I dont know...its weird. Anyway my next step is to get my adult status and go to barona. oh, and buy a lottery ticket. hah, its strange to think that i am now "legal"--whatever that means to me in particular is unknown. But yeah, thanks to everyone who made my birthday and birthday "party" wonderful.
