Monday, November 14, 2005

new possibility: classics minor. that is, in addition to my comparative literature minor. unbeknownst to me, I'm pretty much on my way there save one class. It all depends on French!

I found out that this girl in my latin class is a humanities major and I love how I started asking her questions just so I could size up the competition. yes, competition because she's supposedly graduating spring 07 too and I have big, secret plans. so of course I'm trying to figure out where people fall in these plans of mine. but whatever, its not like the other girls werent doing the same thingto me--and I say girls because I dont believe there are boy humanities majors. and there is a healthy competition (this of course, only exists in my mind)--the kind that will, hopefully, keep my on top of things:)

Sunday, November 13, 2005

Fitzwilliam Darcy.
He is a handsome man, is he not? Yes, I dare say he is.

He is a dangerous man. He could quite possibly be THE most dangerous man in the whole of the world. And with a name like Fitzwilliam, you know he is not someone to be trifled with! He hurts my heart--a feat in itself because, as we are all well aware, my poor heart is made of stone. I cant quite believe that I'm dedicating this whole post to him...really odd, if you think about it. I dont have anything else, really, to post about save this lightheaded & lighthearted feeling.

man. Ive been sitting here trying to think of something else to SAY. but Ive got nothing. my life is pretty uneventful. and I sometimes wonder if I'm not a breath above death. habit is a great deadener. but those are dark thoughts that have no place in this post.

just so I wont end this post with that, I will say that love the new P&P soundtrack--you can hear the whole thing on the website LiSTEN

heres something else. this semester has been challenging but also terribly exciting. I feel like I've learned so much & why wasnt my first two years at university like this? I feel like this is what I've been waiting for all this time--what I always thought this learning experience should be. So I guess I'm happy. I maybe feel like there was this big question hanging over this semester--to see if I could meet this challenge and find what I was searching for.

I want great things. I want passion. beauty. I want real pain and real happiness. Honest tears and honest laughs. I want heartache and warmth. I want music and language. I want forgiveness and an even truer love.