it is such a hot day... because mr. john mayer is in town. that's right; lover lover. my sisters bday party is tiring me out but im excited because i did a backflip on the astro jump. but it really is SO HOT. anyway kat and i are going soon... oh john, oMGGGG im gettin EXCITED> i honestly am bc HE will be THERE.

i keep putting off sending the letters i wrote doug. well i already sent a lot but still... i am so lazy and i reeally need to send them because he is so sad. they're even written already. oh, and if u want , i can give you his address.

bye lovers

i am so tired. yet i force myself to wake up in the morning to watch saved by the bell in hopes of catching a certain mr. blonde tom cruise...which is pretty much a given if i watch the show because there would not be a saved by the bell without Zack Morris. "After all, what would the world be like without Captain James Hook?"

I have an interesting way of getting myself up in the morning. You see, I never ever ever use an alarm. I've mastered waking myself up and never over-sleeping. So the night before... I must look at my clock and repeat in my head what time I must wake in order to have enough time to do everything I need to (in most cases, watch Sbtb). Then sporadically during the night I wake up and check what time it is. Then go back to sleep. It comes so easily that its like I never wake up at all. And since I'm pretty much still programed to school awake time...anytime I need to get up in the morning I will always wake up at 6. And say I wanted to wake up at 7?--then back to sleep it is. And if I dont need to get up at all? I'll still wake at 6... but then I tell myself its saturday and sleep until noon :)

Mr. Darcy is my lover lover loverson. I'm glad sonya likes the 5 hour long pride and prejudice...it is the greatest isn't it?? Even though it takes so long to get through... it's well worth every minute to see mr. darcy and lizzy fall in lover. Mr. darcy was MY prom date :)

today: saved by the bell hawaiian episodes, wavelines, gas, michelle's, north county fair (run into sadaf), claire's (run into sadaf), home, bring sister to guitar, party city, pick sister up from guitar, poway north park produce, biglots!, trader joes, claires (3rd time ..sigh), stater bros, hollywood video, vons. i am far far too tired to run tonight and even more tired to drive. i will never drive again. OMG --tomorrow--- john mayer. this is totally not hitting me but tonight in the middle of the night i am gonna watch the dvd of his concert to get excited. i never found the time to dl counting crows or maroon5 but its okay. because.. JOHN MAYER. (a man i really wanted to marry and wouldnt stop talking about for several months). yes just look at the archives.

OH MY GOSH I HONESTLY LOVE mR.DARCY and MR.BINGLEY AND PRIDE AND PREJUDICE .. i cant even explain it. i love it so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh lover loverson. oh Saul T. Bigg-Mak. what a multiracial loverson. im just happy bc today i bought two anklets and a ring. and two things of surfwax so the wavelines guy would accept me .. well and bc i really needed them because i cannot grip my board bc it is so slippery and i see boys at the beach using wax but im too scared to ask them. OMG I MISS THE OCEAN SLAPPING ME LIKE IM ITS B***H.. i will go as soon as this WEEK-- the horrible week-- is over. im so happy bc today i got the biggest paycheck of my life which is $300. and everything is just going so well bc i love my friends.

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omgggg i SO lover zach morris. saved by the bell is the definitive show of my childhood growing up in santee. i would marry zach. ummm umm i ran at the track and ate fruits and salad and cried over a sad letter!!! yes omg and i LOVE LOVE LOVE mr. darcy!! AHHH

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! I'm so mad right now. I'm a freaking idiot. I missed my fee reg. deadline so now I can't register for classes until AUGUST. faucking sh*t. and i have to pay another 14 dollars because my ap scores got sent to san fransisco state instead of san diego state. bastards. damn it all!!!!!! michelle doesn't need to go to college. but then when michelle starts talking in 3rd person--you know something is wrong.

on another note: i lover zach morris.

uh i have no idea why all 3 of my posts yesterday were political

good things i did today (so far): laundry, opened checking account, made eye appt, called kaiser, called payroll for work, ate salad

i want to see: bash!, true life im a high school senior, real world

after reading those long descriptions, id also have to say howard dean is my pick, as long as i ignore that whole nra thing

"Social justice can only be achieved through a balanced budget",

"The biggest problem with our economy right now is that Republicans don’t know how to manage money

the opposing party has the habit of borrowing, spending, borrowing, spending."

Dean explained that in his opinion, the government should have no say in what a woman should choose. "It’s none of the government’s business."

To help finance this effort (Universal Health Care) , we must repeal the President's tax cuts -- which have thrown America back into the huge deficits of the 1980s -- and balance the federal budget. We cannot build crucial social programs without a solid financial foundation." "The first round of (Bush) tax cuts (with some exceptions in the estate and retirement areas) should be repealed."

Our children will pay the bills for all this financial recklessness.

he favors the formation of a Palestinian state, but believes that terrorism must end before that happens.

"The federal government must recognize that an enormous number of our teachers are retiring in the coming years and provide incentives to inspire a new generation of great teachers."

providing universal health insurance through expanding Medicaid

Jails not a particularly effective way to get people to stop using drugs; treatment is.

(ignoring his A rating from the NRA...)

signing Vermont's law legalizing gay civil unions.

this is stolen from anthony, but it really is a very cool site. i dont know how he found it, but it seems like something mr. hizal would be excited to share with us. it was funny to see how similar my results were to anthonys.

my results:
1. Kucinich, Cong. Dennis, OH - Democrat   (100%)  
2. Kerry, Senator John, MA - Democrat   (92%) 
3. Dean, Gov. Howard, VT - Democrat   (86%)  
4. Lieberman Senator Joe CT - Democrat   (83%)  
5. Gephardt, Cong. Dick, MO - Democrat   (81%)  
6. Edwards, Senator John, NC - Democrat   (77%)  
7. Moseley-Braun, Former Senator Carol IL - Democrat   (75%)  
8. Graham, Senator Bob, FL - Democrat   (73%)  
9. Sharpton, Reverend Al - Democrat   (63%)  
10. Libertarian Candidate   (47%)  
11. Bush, George W. - US President   (42%)  
12. Phillips, Howard - Constitution   (20%)  
13. LaRouche, Lyndon H. Jr. - Democrat   (0%) 

good things i did today: went to the dentist, visited my grandparents, washed dishes and cleaned downstairs, ran at the track

this woman is an idiot

i dont know if its the weather but i'm just feeling so lazy. like i dont want to do anything but lay around my house.

i love when i walk into my room and it smells like black cherry and blueberry candles. yummy.

i dont think people at zany brainy like me. but they lover stacy.

my parents want to enroll me in piano again. okay look, just because im playing disney songs to pass the time doesnt mean i should or would take lessons again.

people are beginning to love orlando bloom. all i can say is, I TOLD YOU SO!! so there.

if i havent called you in the past week, dont worry... i havent called anyone. ive really just been working and sleeping and giving my body and soul to the ocean so it can beat me until i remember and appreciate that i am alive. im in a really weird mood.

after i escaped from the cage that is the library i went to the beach and i fell into the water and let the ocean eat me up. the sunscreen bled into my eyes, blinding me and the waves struck me until my bones felt raw. i think surfing is spiritual, even when you have no idea what you are doing. there is something about the ocean moving you... with sand soaked into my scalp and an injured elbow, i glided to shore on my belly and i felt more clean than any other time in my entire life. the salt crystals are still in my skin and my eyes still burn and my lips taste bitter and i am SO happy.
....until i go online. which makes me know that i just shouldn't. why do i even bother.


and i am a walking contradiction.

everyone in my house is insane. i dont think people would believe half the stuff that happens here. people keep harrassing my dog. my sister acts like shes 2..i hate it. i want to throw a brick at her face. then i would laugh and say, "see? you're not funny!! you're not cute!! you're a freaking idiot!!!!"i need to buy stamps.

hi... ive been sleeping a lot and i am always tired. when i am not sleeping i am working. i dont think il be going out for a while. something happened to tbe pool and it resembles a swamp. right now i have that really SICCCCCCKKK just-woke-up-from-a-nap feeling. GROSS