maybe i should do developmental psychology?
i'm thinking a double major in comm. and psych. and a minor in a foreign language??
:D!!!
Saturday, February 14, 2004
sitting here
valentines day
i'm sifting through Yahoo!
personals
kind of like channel surfing
and no i'm not looking
for anything in particular
just some pathetic
people
that can make me feel better about myself
why is everyone looking
for "slim, athletic"?
and they all make $75,000-
$150,000 a year!
who knew there were so many
single
rich
lovers?
I wonder just how many people
are browsing personals
at this given moment
how sad?
valentines day
i'm sifting through Yahoo!
personals
kind of like channel surfing
and no i'm not looking
for anything in particular
just some pathetic
people
that can make me feel better about myself
why is everyone looking
for "slim, athletic"?
and they all make $75,000-
$150,000 a year!
who knew there were so many
single
rich
lovers?
I wonder just how many people
are browsing personals
at this given moment
how sad?
sugar-snap green peas are my valentine. and advil is my best friend, because i am SICK baby. throat-hurts-when-i-talk head-exploding flemmy-cough sick and sleeping forever seems like a good alternative to living.
..at least i don't have anything to work on or worry about. oh wait, a history midterm and a spanish essay. darn.
yesterday, it took monica and i 2 hours and 15 minutes to make the 23-min drive from UCLA to UNION STATION. Olympics, La Cienega, Pico, Main, Alameada... all spinning and blending like a kaleidascope while i watch my own eyelashes move up and down and i drift out of consciousnesseseseseses... BAM SLAM ON THE BREAKS. we are in LA; you can't sleep here. anyway i don't mean to complain, really, because it wasn't so bad. we passed a jewish neighborhood: KOSHER sausage shops, bakeries. only everything is closed for Shabbat.. i thought that was Saturday? Stars of David everywhere and I picture everything covered in red spray-painted Swastikas. Is that how it would have looked 60 years ago? there are cute little orthodox jew men scurrying home. everything is ethnic and kind of happy. soon the hebrew flips from right-to-left back to normal and softly blends into Spanish. Does anyone know what pupuseria means? someone says octupus but when i look it up later octopus is 'pulpo' but i guess it doesn't really matter. i don't see any white people on the streets anymore. it kind of looks like the 'barrio bajo' that we were defining just yesterday. is this what they meant by 'el suburbio'? it doesn't look so bad, but that's because i'm behind a window and i live in westwood. it was nice driving through LA. Taking the same road from wealth all the way to poverty. where else can you do that, anyway?
oh san diegoooo, can't you make me feel better? I DONT WANT TO BE SICK ANYMORE.
..at least i don't have anything to work on or worry about. oh wait, a history midterm and a spanish essay. darn.
yesterday, it took monica and i 2 hours and 15 minutes to make the 23-min drive from UCLA to UNION STATION. Olympics, La Cienega, Pico, Main, Alameada... all spinning and blending like a kaleidascope while i watch my own eyelashes move up and down and i drift out of consciousnesseseseseses... BAM SLAM ON THE BREAKS. we are in LA; you can't sleep here. anyway i don't mean to complain, really, because it wasn't so bad. we passed a jewish neighborhood: KOSHER sausage shops, bakeries. only everything is closed for Shabbat.. i thought that was Saturday? Stars of David everywhere and I picture everything covered in red spray-painted Swastikas. Is that how it would have looked 60 years ago? there are cute little orthodox jew men scurrying home. everything is ethnic and kind of happy. soon the hebrew flips from right-to-left back to normal and softly blends into Spanish. Does anyone know what pupuseria means? someone says octupus but when i look it up later octopus is 'pulpo' but i guess it doesn't really matter. i don't see any white people on the streets anymore. it kind of looks like the 'barrio bajo' that we were defining just yesterday. is this what they meant by 'el suburbio'? it doesn't look so bad, but that's because i'm behind a window and i live in westwood. it was nice driving through LA. Taking the same road from wealth all the way to poverty. where else can you do that, anyway?
oh san diegoooo, can't you make me feel better? I DONT WANT TO BE SICK ANYMORE.
Friday, February 13, 2004
it's like my headache and my throatache are coming together somewhere in the middle. BAM
i know i've asked it before but, do you miss me miss misery?
a trip out of town to a place i've seen in a magazine... in a few hours i'll be on a train to san diego. san diego, my love. oh my bed my shower my family
<< i know you'd rather see me gone than see me the way that i am >>
so today karen and i were sitting in northern lights cafe before our spanish midterm and we started talking to nadev, a guy from our class. man is he cool. he can speak englishfrenchhebrewitalianspanishwhoaaa . and he's lived in almost all of those places too! he is 32 and i told him he has a really cool life. and guess what, he said i can have a cool one too. isn't that cool? i really can. he's right. maybe i will?
there was a study that showed that listening to classical music reduces stress and guess what it's totally right.
--just a second ago i thought i threw my room key and bruin card in the trash chute and i got so worried. but they were just laying in the hall. what if i really threw it down the trash chute? god that would suck.
i know i've asked it before but, do you miss me miss misery?
a trip out of town to a place i've seen in a magazine... in a few hours i'll be on a train to san diego. san diego, my love. oh my bed my shower my family
<< i know you'd rather see me gone than see me the way that i am >>
so today karen and i were sitting in northern lights cafe before our spanish midterm and we started talking to nadev, a guy from our class. man is he cool. he can speak englishfrenchhebrewitalianspanishwhoaaa . and he's lived in almost all of those places too! he is 32 and i told him he has a really cool life. and guess what, he said i can have a cool one too. isn't that cool? i really can. he's right. maybe i will?
there was a study that showed that listening to classical music reduces stress and guess what it's totally right.
--just a second ago i thought i threw my room key and bruin card in the trash chute and i got so worried. but they were just laying in the hall. what if i really threw it down the trash chute? god that would suck.
Thursday, February 12, 2004
ahh i'm really annoyed! i don't even know why, really.
oh maybe it's because i'm getting sick and i'm desperately trying to avoid the inevitable, but hey it's inevitable so uhh.. why does everyone love blondies? valentine's day sucks. i have a headache. i'm finding it hard to read history and
I FEEL SO FRUSTRATED
like ummm my ponytail was too tight all day and there are too many lights on. or i'm covered in ants or i'm trying to count every grain of sand in del mar... yeah and
i try to listen to music and read at the same time but i can't do either so i get caught in this middle ground between them and ah my head wants to explode!
is this what you call a headache? the typing seems SO LOUD and ew me and cynthia aren't typing in unison. we should be typing in unison.
what about packing and organizing the train trip ? order tickets, get to the bus.. AHH i can't plan anything because my roommate isn't here and won't be until the frat parties send all the horny teenagers home.
did you know education is directly proportional to amount you read? i want to stop being stupid. i want to be one of those people that can make casual references to smart things and people and writings... and i mean when they pull them out of their head randomly, not like: hey my history article is sitting in front of me so let me type a sentence to sound smart (yeah that's what i do).
HOW DID MY DESK GET SO CLUTTERED *&%$#@
i draw on napkins
oh maybe it's because i'm getting sick and i'm desperately trying to avoid the inevitable, but hey it's inevitable so uhh.. why does everyone love blondies? valentine's day sucks. i have a headache. i'm finding it hard to read history and
I FEEL SO FRUSTRATED
like ummm my ponytail was too tight all day and there are too many lights on. or i'm covered in ants or i'm trying to count every grain of sand in del mar... yeah and
i try to listen to music and read at the same time but i can't do either so i get caught in this middle ground between them and ah my head wants to explode!
is this what you call a headache? the typing seems SO LOUD and ew me and cynthia aren't typing in unison. we should be typing in unison.
what about packing and organizing the train trip ? order tickets, get to the bus.. AHH i can't plan anything because my roommate isn't here and won't be until the frat parties send all the horny teenagers home.
did you know education is directly proportional to amount you read? i want to stop being stupid. i want to be one of those people that can make casual references to smart things and people and writings... and i mean when they pull them out of their head randomly, not like: hey my history article is sitting in front of me so let me type a sentence to sound smart (yeah that's what i do).
HOW DID MY DESK GET SO CLUTTERED *&%$#@
i draw on napkins
it's confirmed: brian christopher has an unhealthy preference for blondies.
and when you search for our names, the blog still comes up... our names are in the archives.
the time has come for me to make a hate list...
20 signs you have crappy taste (or are a sorority girl)
1. you've bought ugs just in the past few months
2. you've bought baby pink or baby blue ugs
3. you wear little frilly skirts
4. you wear those skirts with ugs
5. you get dressed up to eat at Covel (if it's De Neve then you're okay)
6. you cut your shirts so they reveal your shoulders
7. you purchase Von Dutch
8. you have crappy highlights
9. your face looks like a paint-by-numbers canvas
10. you own a trucker hat
11. you wear the trucker hat to your fitness class and leave it on (oh my god..)
12. you have those big ugly hollywood-type sunglasses that are kinda tinted
13. you have an ugly tattoo on your lower back
14. you think it's cute to flaunt your lovehandles
15. your thong sticks out of your pants
16. the butt-area of those pants says "JUICY" or "daddy's girl"
17. you are not a natural blonde... sad :-(
18. you still wear those RocketDogs (monstorous flip-flops)... ewww
19. you think you have a cute stomach so you let it hang out but it's actually really ugly and is making everyone else want to vomit
20. you pierce the belly button of that nasty stomach
...uhh, no offense to anyone.
and when you search for our names, the blog still comes up... our names are in the archives.
the time has come for me to make a hate list...
20 signs you have crappy taste (or are a sorority girl)
1. you've bought ugs just in the past few months
2. you've bought baby pink or baby blue ugs
3. you wear little frilly skirts
4. you wear those skirts with ugs
5. you get dressed up to eat at Covel (if it's De Neve then you're okay)
6. you cut your shirts so they reveal your shoulders
7. you purchase Von Dutch
8. you have crappy highlights
9. your face looks like a paint-by-numbers canvas
10. you own a trucker hat
11. you wear the trucker hat to your fitness class and leave it on (oh my god..)
12. you have those big ugly hollywood-type sunglasses that are kinda tinted
13. you have an ugly tattoo on your lower back
14. you think it's cute to flaunt your lovehandles
15. your thong sticks out of your pants
16. the butt-area of those pants says "JUICY" or "daddy's girl"
17. you are not a natural blonde... sad :-(
18. you still wear those RocketDogs (monstorous flip-flops)... ewww
19. you think you have a cute stomach so you let it hang out but it's actually really ugly and is making everyone else want to vomit
20. you pierce the belly button of that nasty stomach
...uhh, no offense to anyone.
Sonya I don't think you are a pessimist. I also agree with all that you said. There is hope, you have it...I swear I've seen it. I have hope, and I'm worse than you :)
I'm in a computer lab and there's some kid who is like POUNDING on the keyboard. That's annoying. BAM BAM BAM!! Dude, caaalm down.
I went to the children's center yesterday and my arms are still sore. I held this one girl--Hanna--for like an HOUR. My arms were like jelly at the end of it. Afterwards I went to eat and I was watching my fork shake as I tried to get food in my mouth. It was great. I have a new respect for Jo and all the people who have babies. There was this beautiful little boy---stop thinking whatever you're thinking, I'm not stacy--named Braiden who loved his mom. He's going to be a lover. I just hope, for his sake, that he will always love his mom and not those stupid girls who might corrupt him.
But I think that people who don't even really want kids have kids because its just something that EVERYBODY does. And if you dont have kids...then what the hell is wrong with you? Same thing with getting married. I think there would be less babies and less divorces if there wasnt so much pressure to do these things to have a "full and complete life."
I think people get married and have babies to justify their existence. To be needed. To do their part in the world.
And I think its all pretty selfish really. Isn't having a baby supposed to be completely selfless? And of course, people come in and corrupt beautiful things because they are greedy and insecure about themselves.
Of course, there are people out there who are selfless and have babies for all the right reasons. These are the people who have good kids--GOOD KIDS.
And I salute them....for they bring in the lovers.
I'm in a computer lab and there's some kid who is like POUNDING on the keyboard. That's annoying. BAM BAM BAM!! Dude, caaalm down.
I went to the children's center yesterday and my arms are still sore. I held this one girl--Hanna--for like an HOUR. My arms were like jelly at the end of it. Afterwards I went to eat and I was watching my fork shake as I tried to get food in my mouth. It was great. I have a new respect for Jo and all the people who have babies. There was this beautiful little boy---stop thinking whatever you're thinking, I'm not stacy--named Braiden who loved his mom. He's going to be a lover. I just hope, for his sake, that he will always love his mom and not those stupid girls who might corrupt him.
But I think that people who don't even really want kids have kids because its just something that EVERYBODY does. And if you dont have kids...then what the hell is wrong with you? Same thing with getting married. I think there would be less babies and less divorces if there wasnt so much pressure to do these things to have a "full and complete life."
I think people get married and have babies to justify their existence. To be needed. To do their part in the world.
And I think its all pretty selfish really. Isn't having a baby supposed to be completely selfless? And of course, people come in and corrupt beautiful things because they are greedy and insecure about themselves.
Of course, there are people out there who are selfless and have babies for all the right reasons. These are the people who have good kids--GOOD KIDS.
And I salute them....for they bring in the lovers.
(karen, this has nothing to do with what you said after "love actually".)
I don't like it when people call me a pessimist. I'm not pessimistic. People only think so, the same exact way they think Holden is. Not that I'm Holden but... we do have many things in common. I'm not pessimistic. I have hope for the world. It's just that this hope only extends to a small number of people. Most people are not worthy of my hope. People suck. But not all people suck.
I'd elaborate but my roommate is using muffled sighs and grumbling noises to indicate that the typing noises are pissing her off.
i<3colinfirth&liamneeson
I don't like it when people call me a pessimist. I'm not pessimistic. People only think so, the same exact way they think Holden is. Not that I'm Holden but... we do have many things in common. I'm not pessimistic. I have hope for the world. It's just that this hope only extends to a small number of people. Most people are not worthy of my hope. People suck. But not all people suck.
I'd elaborate but my roommate is using muffled sighs and grumbling noises to indicate that the typing noises are pissing her off.
i<3colinfirth&liamneeson
Wednesday, February 11, 2004
Monday, February 09, 2004
my great debate for the day was whether or not i should buy the new Vanity Fair. I like their covers--they are always pretty. Anyway, inside they have the "hollywood profiles"--just in time for the oscars. They have JohnnAY depp as uhh I think it was "the rebel" and Colin Firth as "the Wanted Man?" But turn the page and there's a beautiful, bare-chestedOrlando Bloom posing on a couch as "the Heartthrob". But dude, its like $12. Have I mentioned that I'm poor? Well, I am.
Oh orlando. THE THINGS I DO FOR YOU. muhahahaha!
Oh orlando. THE THINGS I DO FOR YOU. muhahahaha!
Sunday, February 08, 2004
I need a job. my life is so pathetic. i do nothing all day. i get excited when i have homework because it will give me something to do. i seriously stared at my hand for 20 minutes just trying to figure out how i ever got a ring tan. at first i thought it was just ashy skin...but nope, theres a strip of whiter skin on my finger.
i spent last night with my little prince and holden. i lover LOVER them. holden is so funny--i almost forgot. he's like an old friend and when i read catcher i feel like im sitting at some dingy diner sitting with holden and some nuns, wondering what happened to the ducks when the lake freezes over. and the little prince is one of the kids that holden wants to save. but the little prince doesnt need to be saved.
yesterday I went to a colorguard tournament. it was very nice. it made me miss guard something fierce. i wanted to buy this cg hat, but then why would i? i saw my old hot coach--and i dont mean old man coach. I was really surprised with MCHS' show---it was better than i thought it would be. Not that the people suck, but last year's show was so pathetic...and everyone this year is a rookie. it was nice seeing the few people i knew--and watching people perform. I miss that feeling. ANd of course, fantasia and esperanza's shows were AMAZING. No words...you just have to WATCH. I'm soo going to championships :)
I've been watching tv all the time now. today i watched a part of when harry met sally, the beginning of youve got mail, all of pearl harbor, and now i'm off to the end of youve got mail.
goodbye.
i spent last night with my little prince and holden. i lover LOVER them. holden is so funny--i almost forgot. he's like an old friend and when i read catcher i feel like im sitting at some dingy diner sitting with holden and some nuns, wondering what happened to the ducks when the lake freezes over. and the little prince is one of the kids that holden wants to save. but the little prince doesnt need to be saved.
yesterday I went to a colorguard tournament. it was very nice. it made me miss guard something fierce. i wanted to buy this cg hat, but then why would i? i saw my old hot coach--and i dont mean old man coach. I was really surprised with MCHS' show---it was better than i thought it would be. Not that the people suck, but last year's show was so pathetic...and everyone this year is a rookie. it was nice seeing the few people i knew--and watching people perform. I miss that feeling. ANd of course, fantasia and esperanza's shows were AMAZING. No words...you just have to WATCH. I'm soo going to championships :)
I've been watching tv all the time now. today i watched a part of when harry met sally, the beginning of youve got mail, all of pearl harbor, and now i'm off to the end of youve got mail.
goodbye.
