oh no, that yucky depressed feeling goo awayyyyyyy

I am in such a giddy mood. I watched the michael jackson concert special and no matter what I will always love love love his music.

I have to apologize to matthew because stacy and I stood him up. No one showed up at torrey pines but that was fine with me! Stacy and I floated a while and I must say that it was really cool...like being out in the middle of the ocean. And I saw a sea lion/seal guy but he disappeared and I got sad. haha I tried to do the little mermaid "hair flip" but OMG I seriously do not remember my hair weighing that much! I thought I was going to pull something in my neck! Doing the hair flip in the bathtub like 12 years ago was much easier.

I did get a very special email that I will save much like I do with special phone messages. And I cant help but smile. Oh please, please... I dont want these smiles! But I do love this fluttery feeling.

so all in all, it has been a great day.

i am ridiculously mentally and physically exhausted.
y y y

you were meant for me, but i wasn't meant for you-oo --> can that happen, jewel? just kidding. im often told (especially lately) that i am too dramatic, and i know it.

at the end of a road of expectations is a sign that says "dissapointment" but will you please just sing that song for me one more time?

hhahahhahahahahaha this is the voice of someone who is too bored (and crazy) for her own good.
i need a torrey pines fix

it's kind of scary to be scared of yourself... and i am definitely very very afraid for myself because of myself. maybe in a "i am my own worst enemy" kind of way? there must be some kind of gene for obsession... and i definitely have it. and it has never brought me anything but bad news.

good news for people who like bad news, perhaps? it's just that... maybe your mouth was made to suck my kiss.
somebody please put an end to my madness.

thursday storytime minus piano lady minus craft lady = sonya is a one man show. ahh, the anxiety! i'll be playing my flute and trying to sing "five little ducks" simultaneously come 11am.

doesn't today look like it's stolen from some other part of the country, where the weather actually fluctuates in synch with the months? it's not every day the san diego summer sees a breeze as soft as the one thats rustling trees today. at the risk of sounding like im trying to write a bad romance, it's the kind of breeze that makes you miss someone you once knew.

now i know everyone else's frustrations... i just wrote a 7 paragraph post and lost it shortly after. here is the outline:

Extensive comments on The Notebook book and movie
Random stuff about work
Reflections on Coronado
More randomness

May I please have a moment? KJG*$#$%%yh78YS&*^%%##$!!!!

thanks.

Hoppy Berthday, Stacy!

baby stace ugh- frosh babie & goodkid- dancer & actress and will-be-engineer/teacher extraordinaire- college student "up north"- much loved daughter sister and friend!!

we all love you.

EDIT: I can't get to torrey pines until 6pm friday because my work schedule change... but everybody should still go as planned! and i'm still coming... just not until 6-ish.

>> new work schedule >>
M: 11-8
T: OFF
W: 4-8
Th: 9:30-1:30
F: 8:30-5:30
S: 11:30-5:30
Su: OFF

= 30 hours

In other news, I had to turn down the Gap, which was sad because the supervisor girl was soo nice. Oh well, maybe in another lifetime. And I'm seeing this working-all-day-friday schedule change as a positive one (winkwinkwink).

I'm reading The Notebook and it kind of sucks... but it is sort of good because it sends me into an intense napping state and I have no trouble going to bed at night. No more insomnia. And I also traded in the rest of the real literature I checked out (but never read, of course) for the sequel to Bridget Jones Diary. woohoo!

Today was filled with adventure!!

first, stacy and I went to balboa park and saw the Vatican exhibition at the Museum of Art. It was amazing. At times I was a bit overwhelmed. And I think it might have taken us longer than 2 hours... I felt bad for stacy bc she always had to wait for me, but I wanted to read everything.

then at dennys, I sort of, um, felt sad because our waitress was this filipino lady that REALLY liked stacy because she was filipino too. She didnt think I was filipino so I was sort of neglected. I would have to say that it was one of the worst times I've ever not been thought of as being filipino. But hey, more shinning examples for stacy to use for her paper/project!! sonya tells me that I should just check the little box labeled "other" for my race/ethnicity.

The stalker in me wants me to be a homewrecker. The stalker in me likes to make weird phone calls and bring cameras to baseball games. The other part of me, the one that I would like to call more "logical" and less scary, is screaming at me to STOP! because that is no way for a reasonable person to act and isn't it time I grew up and stopped acting like I'm still 13, and isnt it better to take what you can get and have something real than any sort of grand illusions anyway? And I do know that I can't really be a homewrecker, even if I maybe wanted to be one even just a little bit...but I have to say that pretending is far more fun:)

Come to Torrey Pines (2nd lifeguard tower to the right of the lower entrance where all of the construction is) on Friday (August 6) at around 2pm or sometime after that.

(for a very informal get-together)

i LOVE the cover of this issue of The New Yorker. THIS is summer.

i made this today and also tried to add comments to this blog.

I got this from Jo's xanga (what can i say? i like taking these) :

You are the hidden beauty


Which Ultimate Beautiful Woman are You?
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anyway updating the schedule:
mon 8/9: work 12-4
tues 8/10: off
wed 8/11: work 930-630 and stacys day AND princess diaries 2 released
thurs 8/12: work 11-4
fri 8/13: work 930-630
sat 8/14: work 11-5
sun 8/15: work 9-11 sonyas house a las quatro y media menos media:)
mon 8/16: off
tues 8/17: work 11-630
wed 8/18: off
thurs 8/19: work 11-4 registration and RCIA mtg @ 7pm
fri 8/20: work 930-630
sat 8/21: work 930-630
sun 8/22: scc mtg with lover loverson! :D

tomorrow is balboa park and my last anthro class!! yayyyyy FINALLY done with schoooooool. summer should not be wasted with classes.

beauty and the beast. aladdin. little mermaid. pocohontas. sleeping beauty.