first day back in sd.... woke up, crashed mom's car while trying to get out of garage. went to work. had fun with clare! (i really like clare) and bosses were nice, gave us souplantation certificates and coookies. loved working for 3 dollars more than i usually get. got home and slept from one to 6, oh man. didn't realize i was that tired. michelle called, we went to north county fair. got some of my shopping done (feel good about that). ate a delicious bread to get full for 1 dollar. constantly tired, now home eating peanuts. bye!

eeeee im home bitches!!! oh yes this is so exciting. i am laying on my bed typing this while eating food not from bruin cafe, not from puzzles, not from dining hall, but from my fridge. oh sweet, sweet fridge. sweet shower and covers and will and grace on tv with my mama! (not showers with my mama, only the tv part). i even got to watch a little bit of that nauseating show date your mom or date my mom or whatever. goooood stuff

in 7 hours i will be working already, but that's okay because i am in san diegooooo. and everything in san diego is better than everything in la, just because this is san diego. don't get me wrong, i love school and everything buttt yaaaah man FINALS ARE OVER. and i get a few weeks to get away from everything. and be near the beach. how awesome.

so soon the hanging out begins. the shopping begins. and driving and sitting in barnes and noble! ooh and the torrey pines-ing, which i think i just may start tomorrow after work. so yay please call me because i really want to see you.

i'm way ready to put certain things behind me and move on with my happy successful and very-complete life. being the missing piece isn't so bad. !!!!!!!!

peace out playas! :-]

ahhhhhhhhhhh i need to get out of here!!!!!!! oh my i need to get out so badly
i just need a break from all of it !!! everything is just so crappy

right now. i m glad for everyone else
who is experiencing great things

but this is too much bad at one time. i can only take so much.
(plus, don't i deserve happiness just as much as the next person?)
it's okay- nature, my shower, my bed, my home, TORREY PINES, take me away

soon i'll be home.

I think because I am constantly disappointed by people as a whole, and in general, I feel a deeper feeling of gratitude and something else that borders admiration and approval when I am pleasantly surprised by their actions.

I was upset with my poli sci professor giving me an F on a paper and not returning my calls and I acutally began to accept this new hideous form of injustice when, while at the mall, I received a call from my professor! How quickly I went from gloominess to such hope! Then, as the converstion progressed, I fell back into despair as he catagorized all my faults. But wait! My hopes raised once again, added with much joy, when he said I could re-write the paper! I must admit that I do feel a sense of gratitude for this second chance, although I still refuse to believe that I was ever in the wrong. I think, and hope, that any sensible person would agree with me. And even if you don't, just say that you do...at least to my face. Moreover, he was saying that I shouldn't feel bad because I wasn't the only one who made "mistakes" on the paper. Only I never felt bad about what I had done. I also chose to overlook his tone of voice--as if he was doing me a favor. I suppose he is, but I also fully believe that I'm only getting was it due to me--what should have been mine in the first place because I earned it. Nothing that he gave me. Still, who am I to turn away from this fantastic opportunity?? So just when I thought I was done with school, I have a paper to write:)

Another surprise: for my study abroad application I had to have 2 teacher recommendations. My old rws teacher emailed me with a copy of what he sent in. Technically, I shouldn't see it because I signed a waiver...but it was very nice of him to consider that I would most definitely want to see what he wrote! And awww...so nice! I've always wondered what teachers actually thought of me as their student, and this was a wonderful way to find out--even if it's just the tiniest bit of their impression and even if it may be entirely full of lies. But I'll take compliments to my character, as untrue and unfounded they may be, whenever I can. I felt like an absolute genius in that rws class, and it feels quite nice to have some sort of confirmation of my proud thought, and from the teacher no less! I will admit that it did do something to boost my ego, but hopefully I will not find my hats too small. And even if I should, I know my good friends will once again properly humble me to my own humorous condition in life.

because i should be studying for my physics final....

ucla sonya: am i ugly?
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ucla sonya: do you think i am ugly?
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ucla sonya: no one likes me
SmarterChild: Don't be so sure no one likes you.
ucla sonya: boys don't like me
SmarterChild: Boys don't like you?

ucla sonya: i am ugly
SmarterChild: Don't be so hard on yourself.
ucla sonya: :'(
SmarterChild: I don't like to see you sad. Let me know how I can help.
ucla sonya: i feel so sad
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ucla sonya: what should i do?
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ucla sonya: what should i do to be happy?
SmarterChild: How would you answer that question?
ucla sonya: i asked you first
SmarterChild: Whatever, ucla sonya...

p.s. YOU SUCK

i, too, have gone completely insane. this has been one of those "strangest weeks of my life" weeks and i am so tiredof it. please, please someone make it stop.

i have a physics final at 8am tomorrow and i have yet to study because i fell asleep after work. i hate stress. it brings out the worst in me. and i hate boys, because they do too.

i just really need to get away from this place for a while. i'm going home tomorrow night and soon everything will be fine. and when i come back everything will continue as if this week never happened.

and it'll be for the best.

f it-

my God it feels good to be done with finals. I had a nervous breakdown this morning that left me a weeping and hyperventilating mess on the floor of my room. after a series of incidents that I would have found hilarious had they not happened to me, I just sent in my last final. My tired eyes and sore wrists demand the insanity end now, even though I know it wasn't even CLOSE to being correct. Yes, right now I am just happy its over.

I earned a B in geography--what joy! what relief! I admire the good prince william even more for majoring in geog...oh yes lover, please do tell me again how soil is formed....

Sadaf and I went to Irvine for my work party. it was okay and we played skeeball but on the way home we started listing all the wonderful lover qualities of our unknown husbands. must be well groomed without high upkeep or looking like hes trying. no long fingernails. must be taller than us because hey, we're short people. should know how to dress himself for the ocassion. suits. must have lover smelling colonge. argyle socks. should have a timepiece that is no way related to a cellphone. has a passion for something. should always always open doors...for everyone. should open doors in "that way" where it comes naturally and not strangely. is well rounded and well educated. gets along with animals. gets along with kids. gives flowers at random "just because." stays on the outside when walking with us on sidewalks. can cook at least one meal. offers the coat/jacket/sweater when its cold. doesnt mind singing. has a sense of humor. has nice shoulders. is motivated. can carry conversation. not afraid to show affection in public, but not in the 'ew-nasty' way. always remembers to say please and thank you. can laugh at himself. pink shirts... the list goes ever on. part of my soul I seek thee, and thee claim my other half.

Oh, how I long for the comfort of sleep!! I am now going to proceed to my bed and I shall not visit the waking earth for a month. goodbye

HUG your Mailman! (mailwoman)
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Assassinate your Political Science professor.

its the most wonderful time of the year!!----> Finals.

2 down, 3 to go. I'm falling asleep in the computer lab. I need coffee but I'm poor and I've been sitting in front of a computer staring at the same group of numbers for what seems like my whole life. all I want to do is sleep but my class starts in 20 minutes. thats at least

i ran 3 miles tonight!! (i know that is nothing to most people...) but this is coming from the person who would whiiiine about walking uphill and who could hardly finish 4 laps around the track. yay im cool yay

so it's finals week... how exciting. it's time to bring my grades up by 2 letters with just one exam. i can so do it. Cs on my midterms will not stop me... tomorrow is french and i haven't started studying for it. but i know what i'm doing. wednesday is life science and friday is physics. it's too bad that i have to devote 12 hours of possible study time to working over this week, but that's okay. i mean i cant study 12 hours a day anyway. so yay im kind of excited for finals. finals week is when i usually realize how cool my classes are.

when i took philosophy i didnt even like it until finals week when i was forced to learn everything. then i was sad it was over. same thing is happening with life science... this biology stuff is so cool!! i love it and i love my prof. too bad the class is over.

okay so i need to stop buying and eating unhealthy snacks. today i ate pretzels, cheese crackers, gummis, and junior mints. finished all of it by myself. bleh.

so i come home friday night! and i'm already going to work saturday morning haha.. that's kind of crazy, but it will be SO NICE having that money. to spend on y'alls christmas presents haha.

what else what else? i hate the internet and i commend everyone who does not go on aim, feels no need to, etc.

and i like people who speak french.

stacy i hope you're having fun!!!!! sadie and michelle i need/want to call you back. i will just as soon as my french final is over tomorrow night. bye everyone good luck w everything