the craziness continues.... studying/being a student seem so.... unnecessary right now. don't tell my parents that. but really.. with everything else i've gotten myself into it hardly seems like i'm a student. art history seems so far removed from reality, from everything else i'm doing with my life.
-mentorship continues to dominate... in the best way possible, of course, but it dominates nonetheless. it also gives my life meaning though and pretty much defines me now (scary).
- current internship is hanging around like old socks (the analogy doesn't work but i'll go with it). it's kind of like the socks in your drawer that are holy or stretched out but you keep them in there and ocassionaly wear them but more than anything they just take up space
-future internship (or interviewing for it, at least) is giving me nightmares
-future apartment stuff is on my mind and not in a good way
-independent research project and presenting it may 12th at UCLA (ahh so soon)
-ring dance the weekend after that
-the student group for educational advocacy that me and 5 other people are trying to start up... this means weekly meetings and extra meetings with our professor.. and lots of thinking
-art exhibition that me and anj and planning in our minds... that's about to get a lot crazier as soon as it's okayed (crossing fingers)
i think my head is going to explode now.
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Wednesday, April 19, 2006
Monday, April 17, 2006
no time... there's never any time
another insanely busy week begins. 9am-10pm every night.... when will i study? read?
this quarter is insane. time isnt just slipping through my fingers; it's disintegrating at light speed. mentorship is crazy; my education class... internship taking up hours and hours, superfluous. certain activities bring you to where you currently are but then they hang around like something old and useless. i tried thinking of a cool analogy but it didn't work. there's so little time (god i feel like jessie). i already know this week will pass with a blink-- mentorship, assessments, SEA meetings, art history lectures, 4 magical hours (im pathetic and overeager) and then it's retreat and an interview. i have to prepare for that too.... a lot. i hope i'm enjoying it all. i'm not not enjoying it but i just need some more time to process how great it all really is. maybe i need to go to yoga, buy some time. instead i end up doubling my treadmill speed so i can get my run in in under five minutes. is that living?
this quarter is insane. time isnt just slipping through my fingers; it's disintegrating at light speed. mentorship is crazy; my education class... internship taking up hours and hours, superfluous. certain activities bring you to where you currently are but then they hang around like something old and useless. i tried thinking of a cool analogy but it didn't work. there's so little time (god i feel like jessie). i already know this week will pass with a blink-- mentorship, assessments, SEA meetings, art history lectures, 4 magical hours (im pathetic and overeager) and then it's retreat and an interview. i have to prepare for that too.... a lot. i hope i'm enjoying it all. i'm not not enjoying it but i just need some more time to process how great it all really is. maybe i need to go to yoga, buy some time. instead i end up doubling my treadmill speed so i can get my run in in under five minutes. is that living?
