wooo this good mood has lasted far too long and honestly, im starting to get nervous. i loooove ed. i love reading, discussing, listening to my prof, watching movies on it, writing our survey, and especially (yes i already said it) discussing. i love laughing with mentorship committee!!! apokfseopdvk[ this is just such a good quarter. bleh verbal vomit of giddiness. this quarter's the worst academically but its the best in everything else. i feel like for 2 years i was surrounded by blaaah people and all of a sudden i like everyone. but maybe i just see things differently??
last summer. i was thinknig/talking about it today and i feel so DISCONNECTED from it, just as i felt disconnected from my life here while i was there. but man, RUSSIA, my grandma, cousins, walking around, museums. being lost and free and so happy. i think that will forever be the best time of my entire life. honestly, and i know this sounds dumb and i shouldnt say stuff like this, but i feel like i could die right now and be satisfied because ive had so many happy moments. i mean, it would be horrible because there is so much more i want to do (not just for myself but hopefully for others as well) but if i had to then i would say... yes, i have lived a wonderful fulfilling life. and i am just so LUCKY
that's what it is really. it's LUCK. lucky that i dont have AIDS that im not deformed or sick or abused. it's all luck and that's why anyone's problem is everyone's problem. that's why educational inequality is my problem even though i went to a nice rich school for white people. we're all responsible so well someone's gotta do it doesnt cut it. we all have to
the detrimental effects of valentines day on couples in deteriorating relationships. what crap. deteriorating relationships. what about stagnant ones? what about falling asleep in someones arms once a year
what about pablo neruda.
JUST SOME pieces of different poems:
"mis pies tocan tus pies y mi boca tus labios.....
....
suben tus hombros como dos colinas,
tus pechos se pasean por mi pecho,
mi brazo alcanza apenas a rodear la delgada
linea de LUNA NUEVA que tiene TU CINTURA"
"hoy el mar tempestuoso
nos levanto en un beso
tan alto que temblamos
a la luz de un relampago..."
AAAND
"su suavidad venia
volando sobre el tiempo,
sobre el mar, sobre el humo,
sobre la primavera,
y cuando tu pusiste
tus manos en mi pecho,
reconoci esas alas
de paloma dorada,
reconoci esa greda
y ese color de trigo"
WOW im melting : )
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
two posts in one morning!
I'm sitting in the library, and just across the way is this adorable older gentleman who somewhat resembles the (current) Pope:) After watching him for a few minutes, because I'm creepy that way, I have a lot of admiration for him (I think he's a student) going back to school--he's pondering mathematical equations. But I dont say that in any mean way, I think it takes a lot of courage--more than I can ever hope to have in my cowardly body.
Anyway, to the purpose of this post. 2 things really:
1) AMATOR informed my class about a FANTASTIC teaching opportunity. The details as yet are a bit sketchy, but apparently classics students are need to teach at a local middle school. I'm still assuming its Latin related, as it is connected with the Cajon Valley Latin Project, but it might just deal with, specifically, Roman civilization & history. In any case, I'm WAY EXCITED...joy!! :)
2) AMATOR lovers me. I said, I said, that the reason he couldnt remember my name was because he secretly lovers me!! ...and if not lover, and if not some distant form of affection, then at least, I hold some prominence over his interactions amongst his students. It was such balm to my bruised ego & proof of my assumptions! :D
I'm sitting in the library, and just across the way is this adorable older gentleman who somewhat resembles the (current) Pope:) After watching him for a few minutes, because I'm creepy that way, I have a lot of admiration for him (I think he's a student) going back to school--he's pondering mathematical equations. But I dont say that in any mean way, I think it takes a lot of courage--more than I can ever hope to have in my cowardly body.
Anyway, to the purpose of this post. 2 things really:
1) AMATOR informed my class about a FANTASTIC teaching opportunity. The details as yet are a bit sketchy, but apparently classics students are need to teach at a local middle school. I'm still assuming its Latin related, as it is connected with the Cajon Valley Latin Project, but it might just deal with, specifically, Roman civilization & history. In any case, I'm WAY EXCITED...joy!! :)
2) AMATOR lovers me. I said, I said, that the reason he couldnt remember my name was because he secretly lovers me!! ...and if not lover, and if not some distant form of affection, then at least, I hold some prominence over his interactions amongst his students. It was such balm to my bruised ego & proof of my assumptions! :D
after having my hopes crushed through a single email by a person who, I had forgotten, can sometimes be a jerk, I am well again. or at least my fits have left me and my mind is as clear as I can ever hope to expect it. And I'll need all the help I can get for this semester.
Natural Disasters: I was thinking about dropping, but then decided to take it CR/NCR but changed my mind again because, and this will make me sound like a person only concerned with grabbing credits & grades, but I need the gpa points. I've been told that gpa is not as important as I think it is but trust me, I'm not brilliant enough to get anywhere based on my own personal charm (another thing that I sorely lack).
Classical Civ: Such a fun class because the professor, Smith, is hilarious. He makes 2.5 hours go by quickly, and I'm not even tired when I get out late at night. Im already half in love with the class simply based on the texts.T here must be something in the water because the classics and hum professors are just the greatest, funniest people with such interesting lives
Euro Romanticism: I wasn't too excited about this class because I had just taken BRITISH Romanticism and sadly enough, it didn't live up to my expectations. But I'm surprised by how much I can, not only tolerate, but enjoy this class considering the heaving reading of Goethe & Rousseau. The thing that makes it so much better is the discussion. In both my prev. ENG and COMP LIT classes, for some reason, it seemed like the discussion was stifiled.
Renaissance: I <3 my Hum professor, Skwara. But not in the same way that I lover my Latin professor. I nearly cried his first lecture...for reasons that are both hard to explain and would put me up for ridicule, and so I shall not attempt an explanation. It should suffice to say that I'm so excited for all that I have yet to learn from him:)
LATIN: I saved the best for last:) Except that there's not much to say! Everything is just as it was, save the class has shrunk considerably...theres only 12 of us. but I theres 2 people that are in a couple of my other classes, and that makes me feel like I have friends or something. haha. My Professor is as lovely as ever...if only bad with names. And I honestly, truly love Latin...for more than the professor. But I personally get so much out of it, and it means a lot to me... and that should be enough to silence all the nay-sayers.
Other than all this, I dont have a lot of time for anything else, much less my FRIENDS. I miss you dearly.
Natural Disasters: I was thinking about dropping, but then decided to take it CR/NCR but changed my mind again because, and this will make me sound like a person only concerned with grabbing credits & grades, but I need the gpa points. I've been told that gpa is not as important as I think it is but trust me, I'm not brilliant enough to get anywhere based on my own personal charm (another thing that I sorely lack).
Classical Civ: Such a fun class because the professor, Smith, is hilarious. He makes 2.5 hours go by quickly, and I'm not even tired when I get out late at night. Im already half in love with the class simply based on the texts.T here must be something in the water because the classics and hum professors are just the greatest, funniest people with such interesting lives
Euro Romanticism: I wasn't too excited about this class because I had just taken BRITISH Romanticism and sadly enough, it didn't live up to my expectations. But I'm surprised by how much I can, not only tolerate, but enjoy this class considering the heaving reading of Goethe & Rousseau. The thing that makes it so much better is the discussion. In both my prev. ENG and COMP LIT classes, for some reason, it seemed like the discussion was stifiled.
Renaissance: I <3 my Hum professor, Skwara. But not in the same way that I lover my Latin professor. I nearly cried his first lecture...for reasons that are both hard to explain and would put me up for ridicule, and so I shall not attempt an explanation. It should suffice to say that I'm so excited for all that I have yet to learn from him:)
LATIN: I saved the best for last:) Except that there's not much to say! Everything is just as it was, save the class has shrunk considerably...theres only 12 of us. but I theres 2 people that are in a couple of my other classes, and that makes me feel like I have friends or something. haha. My Professor is as lovely as ever...if only bad with names. And I honestly, truly love Latin...for more than the professor. But I personally get so much out of it, and it means a lot to me... and that should be enough to silence all the nay-sayers.
Other than all this, I dont have a lot of time for anything else, much less my FRIENDS. I miss you dearly.
