I had a dream that sonya came back last night and she kept trying to wipe her arm on me because (she's wearing a blue sweater) she dunk her arm in the ocean in hawaii and wanted me to like have hawaii water? I dunno...it was weird.

I just want to say that I love eye candy. But wow, it can be the greatest distraction EVER. I'm not kidding. ANd I think its strange to be so attracted to someone that you dont know. I think its sorta shallow? but like I said---->DISTRACTION:)

I am, in general, not a big fan of surprises. I like to be emotionally prepared for things. But I really really like when people surprise me. Like, when I see how people have changed and grown and everything turned out okay. Especially when they've found direction to their life, or have developed into this like, Adult. It's amazing...I don't know how to explain it. I just get really happy for them and for some odd reason, I feel all proud of them too. I dont know what im saying anymore.

I watched American History X for the first time last night. I understand why everyone kept telling me to see it. Everyone should watch it to better understand Humanity.

Sonya comes back tomorrow!!

today i slept in love and it was great! although being at school for 12 hours was definately not fun :(

waking up at 5:30 is going to take some getting used to. But in my comm class I met this girl named jessie whos really nice. But that class, oddly enough, reminds me very much of am. lit with woodshank. It's structured very much like high school so that was weird. Theres this other girl named Crystal who said she was a professional surfer but stopped surfing frosh year. I was amazed yet suspicious.

I'm sorta excited about my writing class. My teacher is cool-- shes written some scripts for like soap operas and stuff and we're learning from her book so she relates a lot of it to FILM and TV which I am just over the moon about. HOWEVER, today the guy that was sitting behind me kept shaking my desk which was super annoying.

I just got back from hot java where i spent 2 hours reading and taking notes. I had to get out of my house because it was being taken over by my brothers friends. I got to sit in the big comfy couches and for once, I didn't have to pretend I was a college student. I FELT like a college student which made me happy. Until this mob of like 10 asian ladies came in and decided to throw a party. I wanted to throw my highlighters at them...im not kidding. POW POW!

However...I am sad. My precious is very very sick. He has cataracts in both eyes--which eventually leads to blindless. He also has hip displacia. I dont know what to do...

random senior act. pics

being a romantic is not at all a bad thing. we just demand more out of love and people. and i think that it's important enough to be patient because its worthwhile. at least I'd like to think so.

So today was my first day. It was pretty good actually. My philosophy teacher is INSANE--funny man, I think I'll like his class a lot. My psych class is huge and the teacher kept talking and talking and I started to fall asleep. Oh help me stay awake in that class! Theatre was um, interesting... actually it was really funny because the teacher had this slideshow of people doing funny things. I can't explain it and you just had to be there. I knew at least one person in all my classes so that was good. Overall it was a good day.

But the night before school starts I always have a sorta restless sleep. I'm sorta sleeping but not really and so I'm tired. Gonna take a nap before I'm off to work again at Zany Brainy... just thinking about it is making me nervous.

Oh and mthedragon, you are SO LOVED.

Today just wouldn't stop. Everything was annoying me and I just could not ESCAPE. It was no way to spend my last day of summer and now I think I'm so depressed I'm going to eat a cow. Even now just as I get back home from saying bye to the beach, my house is suffocating me. I WANT OUT.

I don't know what to think about tomorrow. I'm not really scared or nervous or anything--I'm just indifferent to it all. But I must admit that the theme song from saved by the bell:the college years was stuck in my head this morning.

I heart the frosh babies. I don't know how college will change us...but I can't wait for thanksgiving. Now I must go into a closet and shoot myself...then crawl out and plan for school tomorrow...I can't believe it's here.

i wanna tea party. there are currently 5 splinters in my hand and I am really really horrible at air hockey.