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I'm seriously considering throwing myself off the coronado bridge. So I failed the most important test of my life. I won't be able to get into the classes I want next semester, I most definitely won't be able to study abroad and now I only have one more chance to pass this test otherwise I have to drop the major all together.This is a horrible way to begin the hell leading up to finals. Really, the bridge is looking so wonderful right now.

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grr there's a screening of A Very Long Engagement (jean pierre jeunet's new movie w audrey tatau) and jeunet is giving a talk thing afterwards and i cant go!!!! boo to prior engagements

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Cause I came here with a load/ And it feels so much lighter, since I met you

So today's been interesting! I woke up at 9 to go "jogging" but I felt sick so I only "ran" four laps. better than nothing, right? Then Karen and I headed downtown to pick up her sister from Union Station. The 1 hour bus ride was actually pretty fun, although it was cold as &%$#. We got to the station early so we visited a Mexican street festival on Olvera. It was so cool!!! there was cheap mexican food and lots of little kiosks and stores and cultural dancing. everything was so colorful and cultural; it was exciting to be there. Union station is so beautiful and they sell amazing hot chocolate. So we met jeanette and then headed back to campus, which was fine. why is it so cold today? the sun is out but the breeze is SO brisk.. it feels nothing like so cal and much more like the east coast. which isn't so bad... as long as you're dressed for it. so i think we're gonna go out soon and show jeanette some of the sights... sights being "Heaven", this jewelry store that's actually called Good Choice Gift, but it is heaven to us. I think my entire paycheck goes there. from now on i'm going to monitor how much i'm spending... i really need to go back to saving. i'm working so much not to eat food but to save up for a trip.

which reminds me ... i better really start thinking about this summer. i'm leaning against pursuing my top secret idea so now i have to think of study abroad. where? when? money? apartments? i'm so scared. but soo excited. i think i'm finally old enough to appreciate the trips as much as it deserves to be appreciated. and i'm getting pretty independent. the public transporation use helps.. oh and being spontaneous too. i think i could survive in a big city. where people speak a different language? what if i go and never return??? that's highly probable. hahah my mom says i will love europe.

today on the bus there was a little boy who told us he hits people because he misses his mom. his mom lives in texas with his baby sister and brother and he lives here with his dad. he says he gets off no where because his dad is the driver and he has to wait for him to get off work. and he hits people because he misses his mom and he can't write her letters and he hits a bald boy in his class. man. i don't know even know what to say.

well i guess i'll do a bit of physics!

Please could you stop the noise, I'm trying to get some rest

Last night was the worst storm I've ever heard in my life! I woke up like 3 times because of the thunder/hail/wind--crazy. But it's sunny outside now and looking quite beautiful!

I'm so restless. I feel like I have about a billion things to do but I'm just...blah. Two weeks left in the semester--woohaw--and I need to cram everything I 'learned' from this semester in two weeks. God knows I haven't been doing anything that remotely resembles homework. I really, really have to get extraordinary grades...my whole future happiness depends on it. haha

So yesterday I took the GSP--again. I have NO IDEA how well/horrible I did and wont know until the 30th. So until then I'll live in a constant state of anxiety that will probably lead me to quit school all together and work at the store for the rest of my life (or until they go out of business) with no hope of finding a lover bc every guy that comes into my store is married. I'll die alone and unaccomplished and untraveled and poor and abused by society. And above all, unfufilled having never met Mr. Darcy. ay dios mio!

On friday I saw a bunch of teachers from mt. carmel--profe cooper, javier, profe orozco and Mrs. Halter (yay!) My first reaction was to hide from all of them, but a sense of obligation and maybe a honest desire to talk with them made me be nice. Having said that, it was still awkward. Mrs. Halter is still super cool--and her kid is almost 3!! insane.

I AM SO RESTLESS. I have no idea what I'm doing...I think I'll just run around in cicles until I get dizzy enough to pass out. last night colin firth was on snl and my goodness I love that man. But honestly, everything comes down to the next two weeks.

my sister now has a fake tooth.