scones and big hearts.

Yesterday I attempted to make these anise scones. except I didnt know what anise WAS. and so when Sadaf and I were standing over the mixing bowl, we discovered it was black licorice, ick! Lets just say that the anise didnt make it into the bowl. Instead, TONS of flour did. So much so that instead of scones, we ended up with flour cookies! It was a horrible test-run...but at least I know not to follow sadaf's advice about adding flour (haha), and to look up things like anise. Here's hoping batch numero dos turns out better than the first. And if this is any sign of things to come, mine and Sadaf's english tea room isnt looking too good!!:)

But also yesterday, I had the chance to have a 'thanksgiving' dinner with my kids from the middle school at... drum roll please...Hometown Buffet! As much as these kids drive me crazy--they're hyper-hyper active--they really amaze me & have become models to me of human endurance and resilience. They're like normal little kids going through the awkwardness of middle school...and yet they all have stories that will nearly break your heart.

Anyway, does anyone else beginning to feel that feeling one gets around the holidays? I know it can be difficult because right now we're in summer weather, but I get excited about the season and baking and decorating and the whole deal. And I only want hot chocolate or eggnog all the time haha. I loove this season:)

FiLoLi

I am attempting to write something quasi-decent and hopefully happy and light-hearted. The recent melodramatic and basically monosyllabic posts are forgettable, to say the least. It appears that everytime I begin a post, I always bail mid-post because I get disgusted. But I digress.

Today was rather beautiful, I must say. (ease into the goodness with talk of the weather...) and I was sorry having spent it staring longingly out the window as I have been confined to a room in order to write this impossible hum paper. as you can see, things are not going so well as I am actually choosing to blog instead of write it. In any case, yes, beautiful day.

Oh, lately (as in today and yesterday) I've been thinking about what it is that I'm going to do with myself after graduation. I mean, in the case that I'm stranded stateside for awhile, and not living gloriously in some remote town in Europe, I need to make some decisions about where I'm living, what I'll be doing to pay bills, when I'll schedule time to wash my car... things like that. And I'm kinda super excited bc I really want the independence and satisfaction of struggling on your own. At least, this is what my naive mind thinks I want as I sit in the relative comfort of my house with relatively no bills to pay and laundry that always gets done. How will I feel if and when I'm out on my own about the gratification of being on my own, I guess I'll have to see. Have I made any decisions? No, but one can only dream...

Fight the good fight. Love. Live a good life.