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wow stacy I wish I had your life! You remind me of the wolkswagon commercial where that couple pushes in a tape or maybe changes the radio station or something while they turn onto this street and suddenly everything around them is being acted out to the beat thats coming from their tape/radio. And it's just beautiful. That's what I thought of when I read your post:)

Happy Birthday Mrs. Magdaluyo aka Stacy's Mom!!!

Things I Must Accomplish Before Fall:
1. Learn stick
2. Learn guitar
3. Get a job

People are giving me way too many reasons to eat! Man I feel pretty crappy. Sickly. AND its wet outside. I love it:P

oh frosh babies, if only you knew how much i miss you guys.

stace, I did that just for you. no really, I did :) Today I went and like registered on classmates.com--you know the place where all the alumni go to like k.i.t.-- and I was so surprised to find that people from our class were already there! Like, a lot of them... it was weird. And I went to like the message boards and photo albums and stuff and people were like "class of 83: 20 yr reunion" or showing there prom pics from 94 and all that other stuff. It was kinda cool because it was like I was now part of this sort of exclusive club that had always existed but I just never knew about. And graduation was initiation. I guess its like in the 80s when people got their "members only" jackets--they felt like they were in this "club". Thats a bad example. don't listen to me. But I just thought the classmates thing was cool because even though high school's over, you can be a part of it still. In a completely different way, and I like that.

I have to pick up my brother from summer school at westview and ugh, its annoying.

im getting ready to clean my room... and maybe do my laundry but probably not. ill most likely throw away all of my homework papers, all of my college app materials, all of the trash i have accumulated over four years... my room feels really cozy right now. full of my high school crap that has surrounded me for too long. sometimes comfort is bad. but this is going to be a really good summer and to make sure of that i must clean my room. i was supposed to clean it 2 hours ago but instead i took a really long shower. now i am blogging and biting the nail polish off of my nails. its hard not to hog someone all for yourself... but giving them space is sort of satisfying, like when you hold off on crappy food from jack in the box (which i ate today). it requires patience and self control, both o which i lack.

there are lots of things i need to do. get my stereo fixed, reschedule my dentist appointments, clean, sign yearbooks---yes, still--, get MY yearbook signed (frosh baby slackers), write jo a letter, fill out a bunch of ucla stuff, get in SHAPE, read 'the 7 habits of highly effective people' which i just received, stop being messy and fat and blaaaah i need to call people and not wait for them to call me! use my pool, go to the beach, wash my car, sit at mt. soledad, eat at wahoos, QUIT MY JOB-- but i think i have decided to stay. stop spending money because today: my sister's swim flippers $20, hawaiian flower bracelets $10, food $4, ice cream $1, crappy grad nite pics from 1 hour photo $10--can u believe that?!--, finish watching 'american beauty' even tho i have already seen it. rent amelie and start learning how to speak french. i miss my mom and dad. and im positively sure i will love the world more when i clean this room.

yesterday i went to knotts berry farm. i hit my head and chin because i am clumsy. i had a lot of fun. today was errands day. after 14 hours of sleep-- im not kidding-- i drove to a flute lesson at lj, took my sister to buy swim stuff, dropped off pics, took her to swim, went to the park, picked her up from swim.... wasted long periods of time BECAUSE I CAN! my sister makes me feel fat. she is learning guitar and piano, playing oboe, taking french, and taking swim. i am sitting and eating golden grahams (how do they cram all that graham?!...). movies almost over due but left unwatched: AB Sculptor, Hit the Spot Abd, Suicide [nonfiction].

the only way i get things done is if i do them without thinking. if i think of turning off the shower and getting out it willl never happen. i have to just turn it off in one simple motion without giving it any thought. that is why i will never clean my room.. i've already written a page about. okay i will do it ready set go!

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA ohhhh man...I was just logging in and they are advertising Blogger Sweatshirts!! wow... that was a great laugh. Why Im getting such a kick outta that is unknown even to me :)

Um, I have great admiration for all people who can drive automatic cars. I tried to drive "stick" today and it just didn't work!! It's difficult!!... so many things to think about and do at one time... michelle's brain just can not handle it all! I stalled a total of 6 times... 4 times in one spot. lol... the hardest thing is starting, I swear...BUT I did shift between gears so theres a plus, and I've got then entire summer to learn so there!

I also crossed off a bunch of things on my "list" today which was nice and got $60 more bucks yesterday for graduation presents when I went to a graduation party for some girl I've never met before who just graduated from UCR and my mom "thinks" she's related to us. I dont think she is..i mean really, if you're as old as my mom is and still haven't met all your relatives, chances are THEY AREN'T RELATED TO YOU :)

i am at work right now and there is absolutely nothing to do so clare and i are roaming around the internet world... and i happened to stumble upon this site. yes the past few days have definitely been a blur. ive been having lots of fun while wallowing away in perpetual sadness because people are leaving me. how dare they? but i find it AMAZING how people have come together.. its like.. finally everyone realizes what i have wanted them to realize 3 years ago. nothing matters.. who cares what people think? i see people talking who never talked at school and i find myself laughing with people i NEVER thought i'd know and i just feel so happy for the same world that i always say is doomed.

so what have i been doing? beach, ucsd graduation, stacy's party, and hanging out with a friend who is leaving too soon. i've been leaving early and coming in at times i should be sleeping. i think my family hates me. oh and here's my summer schedule so plan around it or i will be lonely.

mon- 8:30-2:30
thur- 8:30-2:30
sun- 12-5

tonight: cousin's grad party
tomorrow: knotts berry farm!!!